Sunny sides

I want to jot down the other side of life,

for the purpose of having happy feelings inside.

I got up the moment the alarm clock rang;

I met a handsome on the way and had a short chat;

I printed the teaching materials as planned;

I went to classroom long before the leader check-up;

I had good beginning for the first translation classes;

I managed to get a relatively more suitable classroom with tremedous efforts;

I called parents and H as I long planned;

I bought take-away for dinner, free from the cold water and long cook nuances;

I consoled a former student and helped him to cheer up;

I did well so far with the translation work while watching Bad Lovers.

It is a good day, on the whole.

Happy valentine's day to Linda.

Valentine's Day

Since some day, I cared little about those so-called holidays or special days,

just like today, the happy day for those who have lovers.

It is very likely that I am too old,

or I am lonely in the real sense.

Once more,

I have second thought about colleagues,

a kind of deep impression on the work relationship.

Once more,

I'm convinced with the truth that I am the only one who could be fully trusted.

Two-meal day

I let myself loose on the Korean TV soaps

and regret soon after watching it,

but continue watching the moment I am available.

Just like now,

I am urgently needed to prepare for the tomorrow classes and begin the translation work

but I let myself indulge in the series.

Life is full of paradoxes, really.

Done

I planned many things

but finished few.

I hoped for many things,

but much more ended in day dreams.

I liked many guys,

but kept them in deep heart as always.

When I finally got guts to have some contacts,

they have been some else's husband and dad.

I want to change,

but I always give excuse for my laziness at the last minute

and give up in the end.

Dreams VS actions,

the latter one always loses.

1st day

Tomorrow morning,

I have an examer work.

It is proved that it takes me time to adjust my ecological clock,

as I had light sleep last night because of the morning meeting.

I had a late nap this afternoon,

which, to some extent, helped a little.

NOW,

let me arrangement myself and indulge into the teaching work.

Determined

Perhaps because of sufficient sleep,

my brain works better than before.

I begin to think about loneliness

and the scary of death hovers over my mind.

Some day,

when my parents leave me and my younger brother is far far away,

how would I survive the long life by myself?

Never before did some thought like this occur to me,

but, rather, I enjoy being on my own,

as I could do what I like with no need to consider others or other things.

Furthermore,

such kind of feeling has become stronger and stronger.

Is it a signal of my desire to look for company?

By and by,

I am accustomed to reflecting on myself,

like I would not settle down to do business until I am determined to,

with great determination to against the evil will of wasting time on TV series.

Tomorrow is the first day of this semester

and I hope it is a good beginning.

Unwell

It is convinced that I am really old

as I will go headache as long as I work overtime,

just like yesterday and the day I took the oral exam.

The sequela is horrible:

my headache almost kills me and even sleep could not cure it easily.

I have hard time in coming into sleep state with vomit time and again.

It takes me two days to recover,

accompanying with unhappiness and unwillingness to do anything,

just like now,

I am killing the awake time watching TV series.

I hope tomorrow would be different.

Back

It is a big sunny day

and my parents accompanied me to the dorm to air the quilts for me.

I believe that it is going to be a warm tonight.

Before the beginning of new term,

I come dorm earlier to write a paper.

It is reported to be rainy two days later,

so I think it is a wise choice to back earlier.

Though it is cold here,

and I have to cook dinner for myself,

I really hope I can have a good time here.

Day dorm

I promised to my parents

that I would go home soon after the exam

and stay home till days before regular meeting.

Now, it is time to take a shower

and make some preparations for tomorrow leaving.

Good luck!

Pause

I got back to the dorm for the theory exam tomorrow morning.

Last night,

I did not have sound sleep because of the exam.

After I have suffered bad experiences in exams at college and during work,

I have little faith in exam,

as I have undergone three times failure before the pass of CATTI-2.

I really hope I could pass the exam.